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samsaves @ 2007-08-14T17:39:00

2007-06-14T21:51:57Z

Summer's started. It's not a thrill, but it's been what a week? Prom is next week, pretty excited about that. I start nannying on the 19th then after graduation everyday until they leave for Italy. I need to find another job besides that, to do on the off days I have. I neeeed mad money for next year! Yikes. So yeah I haven't written in this in forever, and I thought I had some profound things to write about, but I guess I don't. The end of school was alright. I cried with everyone, hugged everyone. I'm ready to move on now though. I want to get to the next part of my life and see what it has in store for me. I can't wait to move into the city. It's going to be amazing. Everyone seems worried about my safety but I dont think it'll be a major problem, I wont wonder off alone at night. Anyway, this summer should be good, I hope!

samsaves @ 2007-02-22T17:24:00

2007-02-22T22:25:37Z

Things are better.

ay de mi.

2007-02-21T03:22:44Z

I seem to think there's a lot on my plate right now, but maybe the plate is just small and what's on it looks HUGE.
It's vacation and it's not horrible, but it's only Tuesday. Friday, Monday, and today I worked the concession stand for the senior class at the wrestling tournement and basketball games. I kind of recent the fact that myself and one other senior were there for the past two days. I really love my friends who are seniors and I adore and love them, but the class as a whole is lazy, unproductive, selfish, uncaring, and just unresponisive and irresponsible. This doesn't go for everyone, or even anyone, this is just what the class has shown the school it can be/is, the description could be way off and i dont know.
My mom pointed something out tonight that was really annoying. And thinking back on it, everything she said happened and it was awkward and totally was read the wrong way most likely. whatever, it's really no big deal, just annoying.
My parents have been fighting non-stop today it seems. My dad left and went to the city for awhile I guess to cool off, but they just started again when he got home. My mom and I left and then they started again when we got home. I really hate it. I feel like things are just falling apart around me and I seek out the wrong attention from the wrong people because I think it will make me feel better. It doesnt. That never works. Josh called in the middle of the last fight, I told him and he told me that we're moving out over the summer, we'll be fine and make it on our own and so will our parents. He said that he feels with in 6 months of us being gone mom and dad will officially seperate or even divorce. I got upset and started crying. Yes, I cried. I told him to shut up and he just responded with just wait, we'll be okay and he hung up. I know my parents were separated before and it was fine. Me my mom and josh did fine. We were happy, both of my parents still loved us, there just wasn't fighting. It would be the same in this situation if it is to happen, except I wont be home for it. I'll feel like a dimembered part of the family, like no one consulted me on the issue. And then the money issue will hit me and I'll become depressed about that again and be miserable and with being away from home, who knows how I'll handle that. I worry too much.
I've lost a total of two friends in the last week. Well one and a half. One friend I was really harsh too, I told him the truth when he didn't need to hear it, when he was really low and really bad and I just knocked him over with saying he's fucked up and needs a lot of help. Those weren't the words, I said it nicely, professionally really if that even possible or makes sense, but it was wrong at the time to do and now he won't talk to me. He was one of my best friends, and I was one of the few of his left on the island and I killed it. However what he was saying and how he was acting was not exactly theeeee besssssst either. The other friend I just don't feel comfortable around anymore. I don't feel right around unreal people and he's hiding something and is just coming off as a fake and it's stupid, but I just choose not to deal with it because it then makes me feel fake.
this entry was really long. but I had to make up for some lost time. right?

samsaves @ 2006-11-24T16:47:00

2006-11-24T21:47:28Z

I love when best friends come home and agree with how much the Island sucks.
Tofurkey is rather splendid.
So are holiday decorations and scented candles.

samsaves @ 2006-11-14T16:44:00

2006-11-14T21:44:21Z

I've done so much growing up since Middle School
I can't wait for college, I'm really happy with where I've applied.
The sad thing is ,though, the closer I get to college the easier I find it to let go of people.
This seems odd being most people have trouble letting go, but the ones I want to keep will stay
And the ones who are reckless and want to throw it all away, I have no problem with letting them.
The new people who I've met and come in contact with are simply amazing! I can't wait to expand life
Out of Elwood. Though, there are a few people who I will miss greatly.

samsaves @ 2006-10-10T21:17:00

2006-10-11T01:24:34Z

Yesterday I had the best time in the city with Indy, Candy,and Hillary. It was so nice. I love when things are small groups and intimate kind of, like personal and you talk to everyone you're with. I missed having Laura there tho, I saw so much she would've loved to have. It was just all around a good day. We had an amazing lunch, nice walk around, ice cream in the park, a subway ride, then we went to my abuela's and gave her flowers. She loved it, she cried she was so happy. I love making her happy. Today was an alright day at school. Tomorrow is the blood drive, lauras birthday, and babysitting for the Cutrones. Fabulous. wellllllllllllll thats all I have to say. I could complain about how stupid some people are, but I don't have time to waste like that.
peacelovehappiness alwaysss<3

samsaves @ 2006-10-05T20:31:00

2006-10-06T00:31:27Z

I love senior year.
I dont know why for sure yet, but I do.
I love all of my friends. I love my classes.
I applied for college today!!! New Paltz and Buffalo!!! NICE
Life is so happy and exciting.
Dan comes home tomorrow, we're all hanging out. HOLLA.
3 day weekend. City on monday? I just love what life's giving.

samsaves @ 2006-10-01T20:55:00

2006-10-02T00:55:26Z

School's cool. '07 won homecoming again, duh!
Stuff with friends is good/weird.
I wish we were all closer, and that there wasn't so much hate or dislike.
I think Natural Helpers Weekend is going to be AMAZING, I'm so excited. We all are, I think. The amount of food, fun, and friends is overwhelming and fantastic.
That's about all I have to update about, it's all good.
peacelovehappiness.

samsaves @ 2006-09-17T12:41:00

2006-09-17T17:02:09Z

So Senior year is pretty good. My classes are the easiest things, even pre-calc. Float starts tomorrow. We have a really sick idea for how it's going to look. No one thinks it's going to work, but it will, and we'll win again, and be the most fabulous class again. My schedule is starting to get a little crazy which I knew that was going to happen but whatevs. This week I have float, back to school night, babysitting, and a ton of shit for college that shouldve been done awhile ago acording to Mr. Roth. Oh I failed my roadtest. Fucking allen, I hate him, all his fault, honestly. I take my SAT in october, a year after I took the course for it. LOVELY. I have such procrastination problems its rediculous. Which speaking of that I havent done any of my homework thats due tomorrow and I only have 2 free periods. My moms going through a lot of shit with her depression. It sucks a lot. She always takes things out on me because I'm the only girl and she doesnt want me going out and doing thing with my friends because that just leaves her home alone with the boys. Its so retarded she acts like a 12 year old sometimes with the way she thinks and for the things I get in trouble for I just want to get out, but then I feel terrible about leaving her because my dads a complete ass so I'm usually stuck cancelling plans with friends to sit at home and watch movies with her to make her happy. which never fully works out because she always has to cross the line with saying shit she knows will piss me off and make me "yell" at her. Its retarded, but theres less than a year left of it so I'll just deal with it and the friends that care will stick and thats that. I only went out friday this weekend. It was fun wet and rainy. Saturday the dramatic family was over. That actually was a lot of fun and we laughed a lot and made a ton of inside jokes. Tiffany was here for it, the family seems to like her which is really good. She was included in all the jokes. My goodness were they dirty. I cant believe what my mom and aunts were saying it was quite interesting. I want to hang out more with my friends in my grade. I feel like so many of us are going to lose contact next year that I just want to make as many memories with them as possible and then those will be things to look back on, even if names dont stick the faces and laughs will. That's about all I have to say.
peace.love.

samsaves @ 2006-09-02T11:33:00

2006-09-02T15:37:33Z

I am grounded. This is no fun. I want to see my friends. I cant see anyone. OHMYGOSH.

samsaves @ 2006-08-26T13:53:00

2006-08-26T17:54:52Z

So last night was Dan's last night home for awhile. Him and Brian picked me up at, according to them, at exactly 7:42.We drove around for a bit then went back to Dan's. Paul and...ugh ivan...ugh..were already there. We hung around there for awhile because Paul and..ugh..ivan...ugh.. were helping Dan's dad with stuff on the computer. I hung out with Dan's sister Amanada, she ran into the basement with a sword and growled at ugh..ivan...ugh.. it was the funniest thing ever. While Dan's gone I'm adopting her. Paul and I weren't really on speaking terms which made it weird when we went out. We left Dan's and went to Sarah's because she was leaving today too and I hadnt seen her since we met and she wanted to say goodbye to me and Brian. We helped her load her car, then she came out with us. Both her and I only had until around 11 so we went to huntington village. It was alright, Paul was being a total jerk and ugh...ivan...ugh was being a creep times a billion. Dan and Beebs did an awesome job protecting me from him. OH and we're walking down the street in the village and this kid Robby?(he graduated this year) from JGHS was making comments whenever we walked by and I kept looking at him, well we made the connection that we went to school together and the last time we past him I said " Get off the streets John GLenn!!!" WELL he followed us down the street a little ways and I turned to him, the stupid ass that I am, and go " WHat??? You want to go??!? You want to fight?!?! WHat?!?" and I was totallllly joking but he called over his friend and insinuated a beat down and his friend ran over and pretended to punch me in the face. Totally fake, but nonetheless is scared the shit out of me. Dan was a lot of help...not...Sarah and ugh...ivan...ugh.. were just totally lost and kinda wondering what the fuck I was doing messing with these kids. It was funny. I laughed said goodbye to them and we went and waited for Beebs and Paul because they were sitting and talking...talking...ohh the amount of talking went on last night. We left after that. Dan Beebs and Sarah took me home. I said goodbye to Sarah, that was normal, a total ' we'll keep in touch. hang out on breaks blah blah' . But Dan, oh man. He has been such an amazing friend. The amount of time we've spent talking and helping eachother. I'm going to miss him a lot, but going away to school is going to do good for him. He needs new people and new faces. I made him a friendship bracelet which he said he loved and was wearing all night, and had it on when I talked to him this morning. I cried once I got home. It was kind of an emotionally charged night, lots of different feelings going on. Anyway, School starts for me in a week. I'm trying to find out where I want to go, I have no idea though, really I dont. Dan wants me to go down by him. Sarah said to go to her school, Brian Jess and Paul say Post is a good call, my cousin wants me to go where he went...but I dont know what I want. I guess I'll find out soon.

samsaves @ 2006-08-20T22:52:00

2006-08-21T03:33:52Z

I went to indy's today for an hour, better than nothing though! Mom was being a neo-nazi but what else is new? I missed her so much, I'm so happy we're back into the swing of things. I think its good to take breaks from seeing people though. Missing people makes seeing them so much better and more enjoyable and you get more excited to see them and its just good feelings all around. Tonight I was bored, alaska took the boys so I decided to sketch a rough draft for my prom dress. I know I know its not for a full year practically, but I need to fully plan it out because its going to be amazing and simple and sam to a perfect "T" so yeah. I did that, and I'm thinking of an "end of summer" dinner party. Just like the others, dresses and such, only now sun dresses and light summer foods and everyone can catch up, and some other finally meet, eachother. I hope I have time to have it! Hillary and I are planning to have a stuff your face fest with alexa because we're going to be fantastic seniors this year. I'm so excited for fall. So many good things, so busy and fall itself is a wonderfull season. Hopefully all will go well this year, I'll keep my fingers crossed and such. So many things to do with so many people, I rarely plan on being home. The Cutrones offered me a weekly thing, plus a weekend in fireisland to be a nanny for them. good pay, good people, lots of fun. Anywho, I don't feel like writing anymore.

samsaves @ 2006-08-02T19:31:00

2006-08-02T23:59:50Z

Its so hot outside. I'm going against my environmental beliefs and putting the ac in upstairs. yeayeayea i know. sam ur stupid be cool and stay cool but yeah whatever. I havent really seen any elwood friends lately. BUMMER. I've hung out with paul and his friends and theyre great and nice and i like them but I miss the wooderss. Da's sweet 16 is coming up next weekend. its gonna be fun. I have an insanely good gift for her and I know shes gonna love it. Dans supposed to come home from mexico today, I'm probably not gonna see him for a week or so tho. Oh well. I'm kinda upset that I cant really go running at night like I used to. This goddamn heat. I really cant wait until camp is over so I'm not tired and have to be home early on a weekday night in the summer. Pharrell is friday! I realllllllllly realllllllly hope we can go! I love pharrell and he donsnt tour. So my mom isnt letting me go out with paul for awhile because it bothers her that hes always late and that she thinks hes gonna brng me home late even tho i'm always on time with him coming home. I mean yeah its annoying that hes late all the time, and the one time he did only get here 15mins before I had to be home..but whatever its who and how he is. He doesnt get it tho that I'm still under my parents control. UGH i hate being so young, I really wish I was older already!

P i n k Clover 1: Jess you're so young, Jess you're so goddamn young
mykleptoromance: lmaooo
P i n k Clover 1: Lol!
mykleptoromance: jess.ur older than me!
P i n k Clover 1: but i'm still young
mykleptoromance: true...we're just spring chickens

^ she tends to have perfect timing. GOOD JOB JESS!
oh yeah new bffeaeaeaeaeaeaeaeaeaeaeae lol holllla.

peaceandlove

samsaves @ 2006-07-29T11:21:00

2006-07-29T15:32:26Z

Vacation. Goodness gracious. The drive wasnt bad at all, but it was annoying. Georgia was one of the prettiest states we drove through, plus we drove over turtle creek...pure love. The cruise was simply amazing, but I'm almost positive I wont be drinking for a long time. I miss all of my friends so much, I havent really seen anyone! Yeah camping is soon, alaska is coming soon I sorta miss them. Summer isnt too bad...I really need to do my college stuff. UGH whatevs. life is life and I'llget stuff done eventually.
HEY FRIENDS I MISS YOU!
peacelove

samsaves @ 2006-07-08T12:22:00

2006-07-08T16:29:09Z

Pirates of the Caribbean was absolutely amazing. We went to the 10:30 showing and got out at like 1. It was long but I thought it was worth it. I went with Russell, Eugene, Gina, Pril, and Jordan. It was fun, both Russell and Eugene screamed during the movie, figures, thats who I sat between, I didnt scream at all, just giggled at them. The scary pirates were soooo creeeepy. oh my gosh. so gross. anyway, I would like to go back tuesday and pay $4.50 to sit for another 2.5 hours to watch it again.^_^ who wants to come?!?!?!?!?!?!

peace&love.

samsaves @ 2006-07-06T22:51:00

2006-07-07T03:03:24Z

I'm leaving in 11 days. There are so many people I havent hung out with and I really want to see before I go. IF YOU'RE A FRIEND, NEW OR OLD AND WE HAVENT HUNG OUT WE NEED TO BEFORE I LEAVE! I mean it's no big deal, I'm not moving, and I'm not going to college, it's just that I'm not going to be around for 12 days. I know when I get back I'll get the out of the loop feeling, so I rather see everyone before I go rather than see you all when I get back and feel like its been forever. I'm so excited for the trip though. It's going to be fun! I miss being around certain people. You know, those people who you can just sit and talk with and laugh so much it hurts, or just sit with and not talk and understand it completely. those are the best moments. Pirates comes out tomorrow, no one could go to the 12am showing so we're going tomorrow night. well LFL and russell so far. If you want to come COME! I pretty much love everyone right now so its all good.
peace&love

samsaves @ 2006-07-04T03:43:00

2006-07-04T08:09:26Z

I really have not updated in a million years. A quick thanks to Lovely Lady Lynn for getting me back into it!!!
So school ended alright, okay I guess. I'm now officially a SENiOR at JGHS and yeah that's finally here. wow. So far the summer hasnt been bad, spent today at the beach with Jess and Jon, I really love those two! Saturday was the party at amanda's, and although I got beat up a lot, by Jordan, it was still a lot of fun. I haven't seen korey or lynn in a long time and i miss them a lot. I leave for jamaca/bahamas/florida in something like 2 weeks?!?!?!? So excited for that. SO far this summer, I've done things that are out of character for me, but life is full of new things and I think its all perfectly fine. Drivers Ed. is a barrell of laughs. Laura and Motyka and Laski and Chris and Gina are all in my class. The videos are side splitting, Its marvalous! hahahaha Camp starts on wednesday....it's going to be so good this year. I've been talking to Hillary a lot this summer, oh how I love my conversations with Hillary. Shes a swell girl, she is. Yoga in september is going to be brillant! I made new friends. Oh wont mommy be happy!! hahahaha Theyre really nice and awesome and such. Jess and I are going to have a playdate and make bff bracelets and braid eachothers hair. hahaha it's quite an amazing notion. FANCY GIRLS CAMP OUT IN AUGUST! I think I'm looking forward to that more so than the cruise. something like 12 or 15 girls camping in my back yard with a fire and s'mores and blankets and tents and camaras and laughs and Indy is bringing sage! Oh I miss Indy, I havent seen the girl for ages! She's a doll, she is. I love panera. I kinda want it right now. mmmmmmmmmmm. Anyway, I need a job besides camp. Any suggestions? Or offers? comeon, now dont be shy! I really need to start my college stuff. Guidence hates me a lot already. Its so funny how they abuse me in there. SO this was a good update eh? I'll try to keep up more.
peace & love!<3

samsaves @ 2006-05-22T19:33:00

2006-05-22T23:37:40Z

friday was ok. had a lot of fun with people.
saturday was ok, not extreamly worth all the aggrivation but whateva.
you definately did not need a date for it.

life's good. k peace

samsaves @ 2006-05-15T17:36:00

2006-05-15T21:37:51Z

my knee is ok. and codeine caused me to get high. hahahahahahaha whatevs!
this weekend is going to be delightful!!

samsaves @ 2006-05-06T15:12:00

2006-05-06T19:17:25Z

My leg hurts a lot right now. I took one and a half pills of codeine and I still feel a lot pain in it. I go for my MRI on monday and hopefully I wont have to get surgery because that would scare the hell out of me and it probably will mean I cant go to jamaca, which would make me extreamly upset. Tonight is the night game against harborfieds. rawr.
peace.

samsaves @ 2006-05-03T11:54:00

2006-05-03T16:37:22Z

It's been a very interesting past few hours, and an absolutely horrible past week.
The past week doesn't really matter because it's all just the normal school sucks, my grades suck blahblahblah
Ok, so yesterday the weather was horrible it was damp and rainy and gross. Of course, we still played our softball game.
It was the bottom of the 7th inning and I had a decent hit that got me to first base. There was only one out and mrs.ott kept giving me the sign to steal. So I did. Well, she said down so I went to slide and I'm a retard who can't slide for the life of me and I caught the base in my left knee. It didn't hurt that much then, I was bleeding though. Anyway, two more outs were made and the game was over. Mrs. Ott said she'd look at my knee, but we both kind of forgot. I got home and cleaned it. After a shower, and icing my knee I went to show my mom my knee, and all of a sudden you could just watch it blow up in size. It was so gross/scary. It hurt so much too. The pain made me so queezy. Being it was late and I wouldnt get sleep unless it was checked, my mom took me to the emergency room at 9:30. I was taken in at about 11:30. They did the basics then sent me in for X-Rays. All the Doctors were so nice, and I was so tired and slap happy even though I was in pain, I made a lot of jokes about the situation and they found it amusing I suppose. So the doctor said I have liquid collecting behind my knee and hematoma, a blood tumor basically. I'm on crutches and have a rediculous brace on. So thats the story. dkfnskdajf blahblah.
peace!

samsaves @ 2006-04-30T15:25:00

2006-04-30T19:29:46Z

School is coming to a quick end! I think I'm going to be screwed for some of my finals. I'll just hope for the best with those.
thats all I wanted to get out. peace.

samsaves @ 2006-04-29T20:37:00

2006-04-30T00:57:40Z

list 20 people you know in NO particular order.

1. Laura
2. Amanda
3. Russell
4. Alexa
5.Allison
6.Chucky
7. Jordan
8. Ryan B.
9. Dan
10. Paul
11. Jed
12. Brian
13. Kristy
14. Eugene
15.Vicky
16. Jackie
17. Indiana
18. Korey
19.Lynn
20.Jess
-How did you meet 13?
She's lived around the block forever!<3
-What would you feel if you never met 5?
lost. we've known eachother since we were 5!
-What do you honestly think of 10?
Honestly, I think he's an awesome kid, and that he's very gaygaygay!
-would or did 19 and 8 go out?
Highly doubt it, but that would be very funnny
-have you ever liked 7?
not like like, but Jordan is awesome
-If 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need them to know?
that she'll always be my best friend, no matter what happens in out lives
-would 2 and 11 make a good couple?
NEVER!
-Describe 3 in 3 words:
amazing, smart, lovable!
-Do you think 12 is hot?
no, he smells. hhahaha jk. people find him attractive
-Would 1 and 17 make a lovely couple?
if they both were lesbians. sure.
-What do you think when you see 8?
bff HIGH FIVE!

-tell me something humiliating about 11.
he doesnt shower! haha jk
-do you know any of 6's family members?
His sisters, mom, dad, and cousins
-What's 20's favorite color?
shes an art junky, she likes most of them a lot
-on a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14?
29034129038120938102!
-what would you do if 4 just professed their undying love for you?
giggle! its what we do.
-what language does 19 speak?
english. and hippy<3333333333333333
-who is 8 going out with?
no one that i know of
-is 9 a boy or a girl?
he's a girl fo' sho'
-would 18 and 4 make a good couple?
i see it happening
-What grade is number 17 in?
10th
-When was the last time you talked to 12?
friday after she punched me
-What is 3's favorite band?
greenday
-does 2 have any siblings?
adam, jesse, and casey
-would you ever date 6?
he's my baby's daddy, and the love of my life. haha.
-would you ever date 7?
hmmm
-what is 20s last name?
Haerter
-what is 5's middle name?
Nicol
-what is 10's fantasy?
gay sex with number 9 and a blow job.
-would 14 and 19 make a good couple?
aw cute cute
-what school does 16 go to?
Hills West
-where does 9 live?
NoPo
-would you make out with 13?
no bob.
-are 5 and 6 best friends?
no haha not at all
-does 7 like 20?
yes i believe they are friends
-how did you meet 15?
natty helps, softball '06
-is 12 older than you?
older
-is 2 the sexiest person alive?
oh she definately thinks so! haha jk

samsaves @ 2006-04-29T18:20:00

2006-04-29T22:39:09Z

(1) Your gender: gurrrrl
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: straight
(3) Single?: sure am
(4) Want to be?: i have no problem with it
(5) Your birth day: march 17th baby
(6) Age you act: anywhere between 5 and 60 sounds right
(7) Age you wish you were: 21.
(8) Your height: 5'8''. i wish i was 5'6''
(9) The color of your eyes: pretty brownn
(10) Happy with it?: def am
(11) The color of your hair: chestnut brown
(12) Happy with it?: would never ever dye it again
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: rights rule the world!
(14) Your living arrangement?: mommy daddy smelly boys!
(27) Your family: angelo tami thing 1 thing 2 and the monkey
(29) What's your job: babysit, tutor.((samesame))
(30) Piercings?: ears!
(31) Tattoos?: none.ever
(32) Obsessions?: they never last
(35) Do you speak another language? yes. espanol
(36) Have a favorite quote?: so many. but i dont live by them.
(37) Do you have a webpage?: LJ and myspace

DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
(38) Do you live in the moment?: thats mostly how i like to live
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: for the most part.
(40) Do you have any secrets?: yes.
(41) Do you hate yourself?: never fully.
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: one certain days.
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: too many. love me for them.
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: height. wtf?
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: Extrodinary Minority
(46) What's your biggest fear?: having fears.
(47) Can you sing: a little bit
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: ew. no.
(49) Are you a loner?: sometimes i wish i was.
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: yes. unless i was to meet me when i was being a bitch.
(52) Are you a daredevil?: yes. specially when with my brothers!
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: lists
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: i'm both passive agressive and receive therepy for it.
(55) Have you got a ?: a..? what
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? i'm sensible. goes both ways baby.
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself?: i wouldnt be so stupid in relationships
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: love, i've got the other two thanks.haha
(59) How do you vent?: music, art, and talking to my mom.
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: yeah, which sucks a lot because it takes horrible things to make me cry
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: life isnt over yet hunny
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: yeah, i love it!
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: what havent i learned?
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: collar bones.
(65) And least?: stomach...word.
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: eh
(67) Are you confident?: more than most
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?:belle. hahahaha i dont know!
(69) Do people know how you feel?:for the most part. if not they are STUPID!
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: yeah by those who dont know me.

DO YOU...
(71) Smoke?: ew.
(72) Do drugs?: uughh
(73) Read the newspaper?: yeah.
(74) Pray?: for other people
(75) Go to church? weddings communions, those schmeals
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: um up to a point, but if i dont get a name they get nothing!
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: Sir Patrick Pants, and Emily
(78) Take walks in the rain?: rain is life.
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: everyday.
(80) Drive?: i hate it
(81) Like to drive fast?: lead foot.

HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice?: not for speaking
(83) Hurt yourself?: accidently
(84) Been out of the country?: no, but i will this summer
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: yeah
(86) Burped?: i beat the boys.
(87) Been unfaithful?: no, i tend to not be that way.
(88) Been in love?: nah
(89) Done drugs?: prescibed ones
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: haha no
(92) Had a surgery?: no...no
(93) Ran away from home?: attempted
(94) Played strip poker: no ma'am
(95) Gotten beaten up?: josh&jon. nuff said
(97) Been picked on?: uh NO. yeah.
(98) Been on stage?: oh yeah
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: wow. hahahahaha
(100) Slept outdoors?: yes
(101) Thought about suicide?:i'm a natural helper. the thought of all aspects of it is intilled in my mind
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: so close this one time..
(103) If yes, what is your record?: record for what?
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: i've been woken up to talk and i've fallen asleep.
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: ever hear of a sleep over?
(107) Slept all day?: after being up all night
(108) Killed someone?: duh
(109) Made out with a stranger?: kissed one.
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: not a steady sallery
(111) Thought you're going crazy?:life baby
(112) Kissed the same sex?: on the cheek
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?:nope. never plan on doing so either
(114) Been betrayed?: oh have i
(115) Had a dream that came true?: wish it hadnt
(116) Broken the law?: everyday
(117) Met a famous person?: myself! hahahaha
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: no! i would feel horrible
(146) Stolen anything?: ...klepto
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: yeah for different things
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?:yes, and i punched my friend in the face by accident, havent been in one since
(149) Had a nervous breakdown?: oh yes
(150) Considered religious vocation?: no sir
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: its too good! lmao
(152) Bungee jumped?: i want to
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: yes. and i dont understand it!

CLOTHES and other fashion
(154) Shoe brand?: barefoot
(155) Brand of clothing?: different ones
(156) Cologne/perfume?: deoderant, lotion
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: jeans, tshirts, birkenstocks
(159) Wear hats?: i find them annoying
(161) Wear make-up?: yeah, not a lot tho
(162) Favorite place to shop?: city thrit stores
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: jeans
(164) Are you trendy?: i make up what i wear and people copy, I AM THE TREND. hahahaha yeah right!
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: yes i would.

BELIEFS
(166) Believe in life on other planets?: a little bit. its ignorant to think we're the smartest and only things out there.
(167) Miracles?: yes, wonderful
(168) Astrology?: for themostpart
(169) Magic?: chem.
(170) God?: indeed
(171) Satan?: who?
(172) Santa?: eh. used to
(173) Ghosts?: yes
(174) Luck?: most def
(175) Love at first sight?: no. lust
(176) Yin and Yang?:definately
(177) Witches?: again, chem.
(178) Easter bunny?: spring hare
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yuh huh
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: you'll never really find it. but its there
(181) Do you wish on stars?: shooting ones

LOVE, and all that
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: hahahaha no
(183) Do you remember your first love?: i havent been in LOVE only stupid LUST
(184) Still love him/her?: no?
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: nothing is ever a mistake, ust misfortune
(186) What do you find romantic?: all the small things.
(187) Turn-on?: personality, eyes, and morals
(188) Turn-off?: fakeness, over flirrty
(189) Do you base your judgment on looks alone: shallowww
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: frustrates
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: friends first! blind is scary
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: modern age, man.
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?:yes i have.
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: why would i answer this? really come on!
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: companionship with extras.
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: being dropped like youre hot
(207) What's the last present someone gave you? from a guy? last thing a guy bought me was breakfast
(208) Are you in love?: noppers
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?:i dont have one
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?:whistle.haha

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
(211) That haunted you?: hahahahaha WHAT
(212) You wanted to kill?: thats not very cool.
(213) That you laughed at?: laura!
(214) That laughed at you?: laura! and like the whole softball team.
(215) That turned you on?: no comment
(216) You went shopping with?: momzypoo
(217) That broke your heart?:rawr.
(218) To disappoint you?: uggggh
(219) To ask you out?: a jerk.
(220) To make you cry?: a good friend
(221) To brighten up your day?: some random lady at the mall who said i was beautiful and looked fabulous in my prom dress
(222) That you thought about?: josh
(223) You saw a movie with?: my mom, i have no friends.
(224) You talked to on the phone?: terry
(225) You talked to through IM?: paulie
(226) You saw?: softball girls
(227) You lost?: jess' mom<3
(229) You thought was completely insane?: a random person
(230) You wanted to be?: shakira. hahahaha
(231) You told off?: rawr
(232) You trusted?: uggh
(233) You turned down?:?

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
(234) Smiled?: this morning
(235) Laughed?: last night
(236) Cried?: sometime last week
(237) Bought something?: today
(238) Danced?: today
(239) Were sarcastic?: today
(240) hugged someone?: this morning
(241) Talked to an ex?: we dont talk anymore.
(242) Watched your fave movie?: idont know
(243) Had a nightmare?: last week.
(245) Talked on the phone?: like 2 hours ago
(246) Listened to the radio?: wow. not for awhile
(247) Watched TV?: wednesday night? maybe?
(248) Went out?: with friends? two weeks.
(249) Helped someone?: this morning
(250) Were mean?: this morning to mom....rfsjkdf
(251) Sang?: this morning
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: scary movie 4
(253) Said "I love you"?: jess. i think
(254) Missed someone?: wednesday
(255) Fought with a family member?: whenever josh was home
(256) Fought with a friend?: i dont know
(257) Had a serious conversation?: last week.
(258) Got drunk? hasnt happened.

samsaves @ 2006-04-23T13:42:00

2006-04-23T18:03:27Z

I'm so tired of prom already. I really don't feel like going anymore, but I'm hoping it will be worth it.
I have my junior meeting tomorrow. I've done absolutely nothing to prepare for it and I know Ms. Salley is going to yell at me and then tell me how my grades are going down blah blah blah. Looking foward to that.

AH! On friday I went out with my mom and the people from her store to celebrate the end of the easter rush. It was shockingly sooo much fun! We went to Viva Juan's for dinner and kareoki. They didn't card the three of us that were under age for drinking, and my mom lisa and pattyann let us drink. brillant! I had a martini,a mango margarita and a strawberry one. I wasn't really drunk at all but then at 9, me Nicole and Ashley sang " Only the Good Die Young" for kareoki. It was so much fun. then my mom and lisa put my name in to sing my boyfriends back. uggh. it was so annoying. It came out good I guess, it led to a 55 year old man hitting on me. Which after he had said his sleezy, very cheesy remark, my mom and I decided to bounce. I hate men like that. Oh and then during dinner, we taught Lisa how to speak ebonics and how to be gangsta. So funny, she asked me if I had been smoking a fat blunt. I asked her if she knew what it was, she had no clue.

the rest of the weekend was pretty dull. I need a prom date. Who wants to go?
peace!